ALWAYS SAFTY 1st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2-23-19
Feb 23, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lYr5w37tLM

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um yes I'm clearly in the same clothes
as I was filming for yesterday but
that's what happens when you have to
close your whole your vlog
the following day so we are on Friday
and me and Maya bear we are going to
Walley morts to do some shopping food
shopping adults we just need to get a
few little just odds and ends just
little things that we haven't gotten my
god this thing that we haven't we're
running low on and especially cuz like
the kids they're hungry they want to
snack there this there that in there
and so it's like nothing interesting so
anyways I told Ollie I said well let me
run to Walmart really quick I need to
grab a few items
um before everybody gets out of work and
you know Walmart becomes I just deal
with crowds so I'm gonna do that and
then I am gonna come home and cook some
denta I'm not sure what I'm probably
gonna get something from the store to
make for tonight not exactly sure what
will find something but anyways I hope
you guys are having a fantastic Friday
I am I have been still working on my
cups
I just stopped one turning on the will
and then when I get home I will apply
the last glass epoxy on my other cup and
then after that I'm going to say five
days from start to finish to do and the
only reason why I say that is because
you do I like to cure my stuff 100%
between processing because clearly I
seen that it's an issue so I want
nothing striking me opposed so I have
two days that I am preparing them he
like you know doing them and then I have
three days that I have to let them set
and 100% cure and then they can ship off
to their final destination so anyways I
just wanted to put that out there that
if anybody has anything that you're
wanting to order I'm also gonna be
making some that you guys can just
purchase right off for me but sometimes
it's nice to be able to do like if
you're wanting like your name or certain
scenes or pictures or whatever it might
be just know that you can put those
orders in as well so yeah anyways I
think that is it I'm going to from here
and yes I my hands were off the will you
guys for a minute but I was at a
stoplight so just so you all know I had
a few concerns viewers which I a hundred
percent understand that I take my eyes
off the road way too often and look into
my my camera and I let go of my will too
often and I guess that's because you
know I talk a lot with my hands and so I
find myself doing that but I see you
like right now I'm at a stop sign so our
stoplight so I should be able to look at
you and look at the light look at you
look at the light but I talk with my
hands a lot so I find myself doing that
you know but you know I understand the
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the fear that it could cost somebody and
you know I always think it's rude not to
look over and talk to you guys you know
but I get it
so I totally understand
I am definitely gonna take that into
account but I'm gonna spend some time
with my baby boy while we're driving to
the store but I will check in with you
guys when I get there and maybe do a
little bit of vlogging or maybe I'll
have him do some vlogging we'll see
which one which one wins oh okay you
guys so I just got out of Walmart
goodness that was oh my gosh what a
fiasco Fiasco okay oh there's no turn on
right there but alright anyways it was
starting to get crowded but it's 5:30 so
it's probably why everybody's getting
off work running to the store getting
what they need for the dinners so I just
got some odds and ends I got just some
things to make it for the next few days
because I didn't really want to go and
do like a big grocery shopping cuz I'm
really trying my hardest to not go
grocery shopping at Walmart no more
because I realized that if I go to Winco
I can get so much more for less price
and so I I am really trying to do that
is do where I do my my big big jump the
shipping big shopping haul my monthly
show well I'm not gonna say monthly
shopping I used to do monthly shopping
where I just go do all my grocery
shopping at one time and then just be
done but I'm not I'm not
not really what liking not much because
like vegetables and stuff just don't
last and with a household more of kids
you know I was able to get away with it
when it was just Maya because you know
he had his certain things that he ate
and he was a good you know good to go
but now that we have a household
more little now it it's just more
feasible for us to go like you know
bi-weekly so I went ahead and win got
some things there that I needed to get
just to make it through the month and I
picked up some stuff that I needed to
pick up for my glitter when I'm done
because there's times when you mix the
glitters too like when you're doing
ombre you can kind of blend it all in
and so because of that I had to buy some
little tiny just little gadgets that I
can use for making the litter together
so I picked up some of those I found
like little three sets for a dollar
which is not bad at all
so I did that and then what else did I
go
hey that was it for the epoxy and stuff
oh my god I don't know what they're
called but it's like a blade it's like a
it's almost like a box cutter but it's
not a box cutter I had one and my
wonderful husband used it and he says
honey I'm pretty sure I gave one back to
you know love but you didn't it's lost
in your toolbox and I'll just come clean
with it you actually lost something of
mine for once instead of it being the
other way around so I just went ahead
and picked another one up because I need
it
so either way it's it's what's got to
happen so I'll bet they and I think that
was Lee I don't think there was anything
that was not on my agenda and now I'm
gonna go home and Ollie is starting to
cube up the chicken you know he is
cubing up the chicken and then we're
gonna like saute it with some barbecue
sauce and then make white rice with it
and just have like a chicken rice bowl I
guess it's like the easiest way to put
it and then for the kiddos I'm not sure
what they're gonna have whatever they we
have a chicken breast out so unusually
if we fillet that chicken breast oh you
know feeds our whole family with one
chicken breast now had I don't eat as
much before I could eat a whole chicken
breast myself now it's like no usually I
eat a half of a half of a chicken breast
and I'm good
and today it's already 5:50 and I
haven't put one thing like food wise
Mill wise in my mouth
so in the day been debate but it's all
good there's a flux art in front of us
how funny anyways okay well when I get
home we need to do our reading tonight
still and talk for a little bit so in
fact maybe I'll show you guys what is
the finishings of dinner depending on
how cranky my kids are because it was
really quiet when I called home a little
bit ago which indicates us or us
probably taking a late nap good times
good times
so anyways alright while I'm at a stop
sign I'm gonna shut my phone down so
I'll talk to you in a day it'll be okay
sorry I didn't do this earlier but I did
want to show you guys that but I left my
brown blanket on there just to make it
more cushioning but yeah but excuse the
green walls too anyways there it is
though thank you so much happy mama you
totally made me a happy mama thank you
again so much good evening
yes I'm coming to you guys late because
yeah that's that's how Amy typically
rolls these days really but you know at
least try to at least try to come in
style oh I'm like looking all over my
book um oh my gosh you guys so I
finished the tumblers I am so excited
however yeah it was brought to my
attention like after I've already epoxy
and finished it and everything
that uh Amy made a typo in one of the
cups huh y'all want of the cups
good times good times when you're uh you
know finishing up a company you're so
proud of yourself and you find out oh I
was felt the word oopsie well I guess
you're a discounted cup um but luckily
it was just more like my practice cup
like it was my first cup I didn't even
know if it was gonna work to be honest
with you so um I am really excited that
it actually worked though I I really was
like who don't know if it's gonna go
through but now that I know that you can
epoxy a plastic cup a plastic cup yeah
well yeah I guess a plastic cup now that
I know that you can epoxy plastic cups I
can do plastic tumblers I can do the
stainless steel tumblers I could do
coffee cups I can do coffee mugs I mean
there's it's endless on what I can do
now so that makes life so much better
for me because it's like all right ha ha
ha let's get this job started so anyways
so I wanted to show you guys really
quick because I am just in love and I'm
really okay so oh okay sorry anyways
here's my first one you guys I am so in
love with her like it turned out so good
and then on the back I could have
probably picked up better like color of
writing but it says be your own kind of
beautiful so I know it's kind of hard to
see the writing on that one I guess you
know
you live you learn you find out what
works what doesn't work and then of
course the face
and then I'm gonna show you the backside
of this one first so here's just a
plastic tumbler really cool it is double
it is double whatever that's called
insulated and I know I've had a lot of
people ask me that and then I'm just
don't pay attention to the word chaos
because that's the misspelled part of it
but yeah it's a I run on coffee chaos
and cuss words I am totally gonna remake
this one though and spell the chaos
right but yeah that's that's my tumblr
but I am so in love like beans for my
first two that I've ever made I think
that they turned out really cute I am
just I'm really in love with them so now
what happens is I have dinner so smooth
like they're like glass like anyways so
what I have been doing is I am keeping
the lids off of them for right now I
just put them on to show you guys and
I'm keeping them upside down cuz it does
say to let the epoxy even though that
there they're cured to still keep them
caring for another 72 hours from the
time that I finished them so that's
exactly what I'm gonna do for dinner
today I am just having peanut butter on
toast I haven't really eaten much of
anything today so I needed to have
something in my belly
so yeah that's why I'm having toast and
bread
um Maya can you bring me a couple paper
towels please anyways but I've had a lot
of people ask me like how can they
purchase tumblers so I have it I
typically I do have an Etsy shop I just
have not figured out how to run the Etsy
shop yet if I can figure out how to get
everything up and going I can just do it
straight off of an Etsy shop and I could
put my Etsy shop description our link in
the description box but I don't know I
just haven't figured out exactly how I
want to do that
but I think the Etsy shops going to
probably be my my best option so stay
tuned to that I'll keep you guys updated
on how I want to do that also with these
tumblers you can get them made however
you want you can choose the colors you
could choose what you want pictures
Saenz I can they're endless literally
they are endless to what I can do with
them I can you know I don't have to put
up I mean I could put epoxy up over the
entire thing or not over then I mean the
top has epoxy on the top but I mean um I
can I mean I still am in really good but
I can bring it down I think I'm gonna
bring my my ledge down just a little bit
more and the reason for that is just I
think that I'll feel a little bit more
confident with the smoothness of it I
mean it's very smooth but you know I
just think that it would maybe look a
little bit better I don't know I mean I
I don't think it looks bad I really
don't
but I want them to look just a 100%
professional and so yeah but I can leave
like the bottom undone if you don't want
the bottoms done like this one
I left the bottom undone because I was
just playing around to it like I said
these are my first two I've ever made
this one I made I end up messing up I
had to strip to the whole thing and redo
it but you know what I am that type of
person that will do until I figure it
out like I don't give up so this one was
stripped and totally re made it so
totally hands down excited about that
and I mean even being stripped and all
it still turned out perfect like you
would never know that I had to strip it
and can start it over and it was a
different color I had like bright colors
on it and I changed it up a little
extensive well you know I'm just gonna
change it while I can and just do
something fun so but I mean yeah you can
put the colors together however you want
it I you know I have tons of colors you
could choose from
like I said sayings I could put any type
of sayings any type of quotation marks
coltish remarks any quotes I can do any
pictures you'd you can personalize them
however now the price does go up on them
being personalized obviously but I
guarantee you I will not sell them for
any more than I see that they're being
sold for around I don't do that to my
people I never would do it to you guys
I can also do matching wristlets which I
have one is around here somewhere I
don't know where it's at right now I was
showing somebody that yesterday but like
the makeup are the wristlets that I made
the other day that were first gifts they
matched these I can make shirts that
match this with the Seine on him the
colors would be a little bit different
but I could always get like either white
or blue or something like that and play
around with it but yeah really honestly
I can just do anything and I'm so
excited like seeing these two tumblers
finished I'm just so excited I just
really need to be careful when I'm
typing my words to make sure that my
fingers don't slip and double check all
of my writing because clearly that sucks
that I misspelled that I added a you in
there should have not been you but it's
alright you know what do you live you
learn and either way I mean the
backsides pretty but I mean clearly you
can see how I blended in the colors and
stuff and I mean again you could pick
anything you want to go on them I mean I
just chose this but you could do
anything you want so anyways you know
I'm so excited and I will be adding
these tumblers as well into my merch
lines for the two channels that I do
March for life by gin and pink fairy I
will be adding those into their merch so
I will also update the video and I will
also update prices on those as well so
anywho before I forget
and before we go into our reading for
the day I've had again a lot of people
ask me about how they can get things for
s her for her birthday
I do have a wishlist an Amazon wishlist
it is in my description box I have not
gotten a peel box yet I know
I know I know I need to it's just one of
those things that I just haven't been
able to find time to set up but I will
promise Li get one here soon but until
then know that I do have an Amazon
wishlist they I have added things on the
wish list for her for her birthday so
you guys are more than welcome if you
guys want to do not feel like you have
to or that you're obligated or that
works affecting you to do that it's just
I'm answering you guys because I've had
a lot of people ask so I thought well
I'll throw that out there again that I
do have an Amazon wishlist it is in my
description box and feel free to go
through and look at that and I don't
know how that works like if it's not on
my wish list if there was something you
guys wanted to buy I guess you would
have to have my address to have a ship
to me so yeah I don't know how I mean I
don't know how to do that other than if
it's off of or if it's on my wish list
so anyways I want to show you guys so I
remember I took this little card it was
from the from my month thing for my
calendar
and I've been use it as my bookmark so I
thought well I am gonna make this a
little bit more uni or like not unique
but more personalized so I took two of
the stickers from my planners my planner
stickers and I I made it into my own
little bookmark so it says find calm and
chaos which I should just went off of
that right there the chaos hello
spelling and then embrace the journey
which of course I embrace my journey I
love my journey even if there's ups and
downs and highs and lows it's all good
it all comes with the territory okay
so we are on JT to talk peanut
butter doesn't work when you're trying
to talk I think I snore too hard last
night because I woke up in my back of my
nose areas so raw they're gonna be
getting sick because I got plans today
and I am not backing out of them okay
January 22nd our mistakes are
imperfections our mistakes and
imperfections aren't intended to be
weapons of self harm they are meant to
teach us how to forgive love and grow to
extend grace to ourselves and others
spread that again our mistakes and
imperfections are intended to be weapons
of self harm they are meant to teach us
how to forgive love and grow to extend
grace to ourselves and others that is so
oh god this book is scary because this
book really hits like exactly what is
going on in life with me right now
and you know as some of you know most of
you know if you watch my vlogs daily
I've been kind of going through a little
bit with my friend and so I reached out
to her and you know I think the
friendship is obviously it's it's it's a
done deal I think there was too much
said beyond to two broken hearts that
could be repaired and I'm okay with that
but I felt the need that I needed to
apologize for the way that I handled
things and how I spoke to her because
it's never my intention to ever use my
words as a knife in and you know I'm a
human and it happens you know I think we
all at some point in our lives get
caught up in our emotion
and our emotions drive sometimes the
worst out of us
and especially you know and I'm not
giving this an excuse because there is
no excuse of speak to somebody with any
disrespect at any level but as much as
I've been going through and under so
much stress and just you know things in
life in general sometimes it just takes
that one thing to just pop off and
unfortunately it was our conversation
that took me to that level and I you
know I came back and you know I
apologized and I said you know I'm wrong
I should have never spoke to you the way
that I spoke to you and you know you do
not deserve that you know but here's
here's the situation I'm at this is what
I'm going through you know and I
apologize for taking my hurt my
frustration in my stress and using it in
active actions of hurting you know I
didn't mean that and her response you
know wasn't it didn't surprise me at her
response being that you know it didn't
make much sense to me because the
response was well you know you play the
victim card and you're always the victim
and you know yadda yadda yadda and I'm
just like you know myself wait a minute
I'm not I'm not sitting here saying I'm
a victim like I'm apologizing for my
actions so if I'm apologizing for my
actions I'm clearly not acting like a
victim like I totally realized that I
could have dealt with a situation
differently however I didn't we're all
human we all make mistakes we all fall
short at some point in our lives where
we have to come back and be like okay
you know what I could have dealt with
that differently I do that with my
husband you know that's part of being a
human and having relationship sometimes
you do things that you just don't mean
but in the act of the heat of the
argument or whatever is going on
sometimes you don't you don't check in
with yourself like you would normally if
you were at a calmer state of mind you
know and that's kind of where I was that
night when I blew up on her so when the
response was you know you're you know
you always play the victim card and I
thought you know I have to agree there
are two agree I have to disagree there
because I don't feel that I play the
victim card when I'm always the receiver
meaning I'm always the one that listens
I don't get to share my ins and outs
this friend doesn't even know unless
she's watching the videos what she
doesn't always watch my channel you know
unless she's following my channel 100%
she doesn't even know still what I'm
going through because she hasn't even
taken time to ask she has a tendency
when you know you strike something up
with her to jump to all these bad things
about you know medical issues you know
the last time we kind of got into a spat
which was a while back and it was
clearly about money she came back to me
and told me how you know she's pregnant
and you know she deals with infertility
and you know but that she was pregnant
and all these things and you know I'm
gonna cause her to lose her baby and you
know and of course I don't want to do
that so you know I came back and I was
just like I'm sorry you know I didn't
mean that I don't want to add stress to
you I would never want somebody to lose
their baby over you know my me at all no
matter what you know and it was kind of
weird because about two weeks after we
you know fixed our argument per se
she lost the pregnancy now I am not one
to ever ever ever ever second-guess if
somebody is lying to me about being
pregnant or not but with this one I
really had second thoughts if this
person was just using that as you know
attacked it to say poor me you know
you're causing too much stress for me
and basically you know making a very sad
story so I would come back and be her
friend when none it all that was
unnecessary like you know you come to me
and you know you want to fix the bridge
and become friends again I'm a very for
unforgiving person I give people
multiple multiple multiple multiple
multiple multiple chances to reclaim
their you know the situation and to
build a relationship back up that you
know we had or whatever but you know I
always second-guess that if she was
really telling me the truth at the time
or not but I just left it you know I
didn't bring it up I never said anything
she never you know and that's kind of
the thing is she never ever really
brought up about being pregnant she
never ever ever ever talks about losing
the baby so it just made me feel like
she just used as kind of an excuse at
the time hoping that I should get
sympathy from me because of the
situation what you don't have to do I
will give you sympathy wherever needed
but um anyways so now
now that this whole spew of thing
happened now it's one of her family
members were diagnosed with breast
cancer which again I would never ever
ever ever ever ever question somebody if
they told me something like that but
it's just ironic how every time we have
a spat all of a sudden something drastic
is medically going on with this person
like I'm supposed to give sympathy but
yet here you know I'm facing my own
situations and I've never asked for
sympathy from anybody I just wanted to
share with people and you know and let
them know what's up in my life but I
would never want sympathy from somebody
just because so anyways with the reading
that we read today it's like you know
going back and really looking at that
you know and knowing that I am only in
control of myself
I can't control what anybody else does
but as long as I am in control of myself
and I can come back and say hey you know
what I was wrong I I'm sorry you know at
least I know I'm doing what I am
supposed to do without making myself a
victim because that's not what I am I
was guilty of bad things being said and
so was this person and in their own
sense of ways but it you know it will
all resolve itself I am very confident
enough to say that I know this
relationship is over and I can move on
and nurture relationships that are worth
being nurtured and that I can see a
relationship going somewhere but a
relationship that is a one-sided
relationship will never succeed because
the other person will eventually wear
down
to the point that there will be nothing
motional ii left and that's kind of
where i was getting in this relationship
so it's just a whole sense of learning
more about having relationships and
learning more about the sane of our
mistakes and imperfections aren't
intended to be weapons of self harm they
are meant to teach us how to forgive
love and grow text in grace to ourselves
and others and I think taking what I
just read and putting that into all of
my you know future and present
relationships that I have today there
will be lifelong relationships how it
however those relationships play out you
know am i close to everybody no I'm not
physically close to everybody but just
because I'm not physically close to
everybody doesn't mean I can't be close
and learning things from one
relationship to another is what makes
relationships so beautiful because they
all are so different but you can take
what you've learned and put them into
new relationships that you're blossoming
so that was a great reading I'm really
glad that I read that today but anyways
I am gonna get off of here and close I
need to get my babies ready for
nighttime and I need to go and take a
shower and get ready for bed but I will
check in with you guys tomorrow bright
and shiny in the morning not sure
exactly what is planned I don't know
what the weather is supposed to be this
weekend but anyways I will check in with
you guys first thing in the morning let
you know what's going on until then
sweet dreams bye-bye
